Furstrations...

So two days of no blog activity – I’m sorry. I don’t know what was with me, but I had no motivation those two days really. I think I over did motivation the days before. Or maybe it was hormones or stress or not sleeping well. I don’t know. Either way I’m trying to get myself motivated today. Tanning is done and next the plan is attacking the dishes and laundry I put off. I need to get the last of wedding checks out too.

I really don’t know why I’ve been a bit of a grumpy pants. I’m sorry to anyone that has been subjected to it – especially Dan, Amanda and Steph. I’ve been frustrated too. I’m feeling like there are some things I’m not getting a say in for things leading up to the wedding. I have some great friends who are trying to do nice things for me and I should just shut up and be thankful for that, but instead I’m getting frustrated. I just want everything to be perfect and for the most part everything is falling into place, but it’s the things I can’t control that are getting to me. I emailed all the vendors on Tuesday and most of them said, “I’ll call you the week of” and I really want to say, “Can we do it now?” Am I being a bit of a Birdezilla? I just feel like that week will be insane and busy. I think we have family coming in Wednesday or Thursday; Thursday is my bachelorette party and Dan’s bachelor party; Friday is the rehearsal and dinner; and of course Saturday being the big day! Okay, I’m breathing. It’s pretty much all done! Very little left to do! I think I need to breathe a bit more and take some more faith in my bridesmaids, friends, and family helping me. Breathing…I promise.

The wedding is 2 weeks away as of tomorrow! 15 more days! I think things are sinking in more. It’s becoming more of a focus with conversation between Dan and I. Two weeks and then married life! And Vegas – can’t forget about that. I think my parents are really looking forward to it too. They are taking 2 weeks of vacation off for the wedding – the week of and the week after. They just bought a new car (Chevy Cruz Eco – super nice car) so I think Dad really wants to get out of town after the wedding. He brought up driving out to Las Vegas to which I said, “Fine! It’s a big place. I’m sure we won’t run into each other!”

Speaking of my Dad – he’s looking forward to doing some dancing at the wedding so I hope everyone coming can keep up with him. You wouldn’t want a 60 year-old-man showing you up now would you? Mom and Dad love to dance though. Every dress has needed to be tested out for proper dancing ability – even mine.

I’m feeling better. Maybe I just needed to get some of my worries and frustrations out. I have two weeks without work to get a lot of things done. I really don’t need to panic. I’ve got back up too! We’re really looking forward to an amazing day, no need to stress about that right?

Another one of my favorite engagement pictures

Countdown as of 10:30 today!! :-)